Just a bit uncomfortable & a little freaked out

I have not posted in weeks due to being just a bit uncomfortable these days. I am not due until September 22 but I am so ready to have little Silas or Jonah or Jonas - still not sure what we will name him but those are the top three - we will just have to ask Noah what he likes:)

I am starting to freak out a little bit. For those of you who know me know that I have become quite anal about my house being clean and in order. I guess this is mainly because I am home all day and messes make me crazy - I can not think straight when the house is a mess.

Over the past few weeks I have not been able to keep up my house work as I am pooped and it is so hard to bend over and the two boys in the house just mess it up soon after it is cleaned, before I was prego no biggie I just kept up with their messes; not so much anymore.

I am now realizing I will not be able to be such a neat freak with a newborn and 17 month old running around - so I am trying to learn now what it will be like come a few weeks.

I am starting to freak out about being a mother of two, while I always wanted a house full of kids close in age and know I have it in me; I am getting scared.

How will I handle sleepless nights and attend to Noah and baby ?
How will I get laundry done on time
How will I keep the house clean
How will I make dinner on time
How will I have time for Eric and I
what if baby #2 is colic or sick
Oh boy - I want to cry sometimes - hormones ladies hormones.

Well I know it will all fall into place - thankful I a have huge support system and I know if I put my faith and trust in God everything will be ok.

Any advise you readers may have would be much appreciated.

Today my mom has taken Noah for the day so I can get the boys room ready, baby clothes washed and put away, and clean my house from top to bottom. All I really want to do is take a nap - we will see how much I get done!

I want to Thank My Mom and Dad, my fabulous sister- in-law Nina and my friend Nichole for all there help with Noah over the past few weeks - not sure what i would do without you guys - thanks so much and i love you all so much!