So close but yet so far

So i went to see my fabulous midwife yesterday. I am 1 cm dilated and 50% effaced. This really does not mean much but that it could be anyday now. I am so anxious. I am ready physical but not so much mentally although i do not know if i will ever be ready mentally:)
I am nervous but i know it will all fall into place after the first couple of months.
I probably will not be posting much the next couple of weeks but will update you all on my progress and when i do head off for the hospital.
Peace:)

A sweet moment

Eric and I have not talked much to Noah about having a baby soon just because he is so little. Of course we say things like, you are going to have a baby brother soon, etc but not much else since he just seems oblivious to it!

So on Monday Noah and I were hanging out in the rocking chair just talking and he was saying mamma, and babba and I said to him "say baby"
much to my surprise he took his finger pointed to my belly and smiled real big. I was shocked - it was the sweetest moment ever.

Now I know he is not a genius or anything, but I was still shocked since I have never pointed to my belly and said baby to him.
All week I have been saying "Noah where is the baby" and no matter what he is doing he stops and runs over to me, points to my belly and smiles - it is just so cute. He is going to get real sick of me saying this to him b/c I just can not get enough of it:)
If I knew how to post video clips I would post a clip of Noah pointing to my belly for you all to witness b/c it is just that cute:)
Any suggestions on how to do this?

A fun day at the zoo:)

This past Friday Nina and I took the boys to the zoo. It was such a fabulous day with a nice breeze and no Humidity:)

I am trying to do as many fun things as possible with Noah before baby #2 arrives.

It is hard to believe that in just over a month we will have another sweet baby boy in our lives.
I will miss my time with just Noah, but am so excited to meet baby #2 and to see Noah interact with his baby Brother!

Update on cleaning day: I DID IT; the house is spotless, babies laundry is done and put away and I even managed to get in a good nap - it feel so good - Yay for me:)

Just a bit uncomfortable & a little freaked out

I have not posted in weeks due to being just a bit uncomfortable these days. I am not due until September 22 but I am so ready to have little Silas or Jonah or Jonas - still not sure what we will name him but those are the top three - we will just have to ask Noah what he likes:)

I am starting to freak out a little bit. For those of you who know me know that I have become quite anal about my house being clean and in order. I guess this is mainly because I am home all day and messes make me crazy - I can not think straight when the house is a mess.

Over the past few weeks I have not been able to keep up my house work as I am pooped and it is so hard to bend over and the two boys in the house just mess it up soon after it is cleaned, before I was prego no biggie I just kept up with their messes; not so much anymore.

I am now realizing I will not be able to be such a neat freak with a newborn and 17 month old running around - so I am trying to learn now what it will be like come a few weeks.

I am starting to freak out about being a mother of two, while I always wanted a house full of kids close in age and know I have it in me; I am getting scared.

How will I handle sleepless nights and attend to Noah and baby ?
How will I get laundry done on time
How will I keep the house clean
How will I make dinner on time
How will I have time for Eric and I
what if baby #2 is colic or sick
Oh boy - I want to cry sometimes - hormones ladies hormones.

Well I know it will all fall into place - thankful I a have huge support system and I know if I put my faith and trust in God everything will be ok.

Any advise you readers may have would be much appreciated.

Today my mom has taken Noah for the day so I can get the boys room ready, baby clothes washed and put away, and clean my house from top to bottom. All I really want to do is take a nap - we will see how much I get done!

I want to Thank My Mom and Dad, my fabulous sister- in-law Nina and my friend Nichole for all there help with Noah over the past few weeks - not sure what i would do without you guys - thanks so much and i love you all so much!